The Left

The Left

After the last casing rolls to a stop

After the barrel cools

After sirens and screams and blood and sobs

After claustrophobic hours in closets and classroom hiding spaces

After calls and texts and frantic goodbyes

After making peace with death, uncertain of survival

After breaking news

After thoughts and prayers

After red flags and missed signs

After panic attacks and candlelight vigils

After white crosses and flowers, piled and wilting in the sun

After funerals and memorials

After the cameras go away

After what comes after

They are left

To carry the burden of memory,

To bear witness, seek justice:

Victims

Survivors

Americans

Children

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Keep Me on “Speed-File”

Ic_folder_shared_48px.svgThis morning, I had a strange file request from Google Drive. A former student of mine from seventh grade (and who is now a high school junior), requested access to an old file.  At first, I thought it was a copy of old student work that I still “owned” and needed to return, but I was wrong.

In the last four years since we have been a GAFE school, I’ve shared many files with my students. Some are assignment-specific, but others are flexible and could be used or referenced over and over again. I’ve even told students to make sure they keep a copy for future reference. In the old paper-days, maybe one or two students would nod and file the paper away, neatly three-hole punching the side and clipping it into a binder. Many would toss wadded copies directly into the recycling bin.

The particular document requested was among ideas that I call “pro-tips” for improving writing. The document gives advice on how to “Show, Don’t Tell” in revision with four different suggestions.

It turns out, over 135 students at the high school–many of whom I never taught directly in class–are accessing, sharing, and making good use of that old tip-sheet. It’s teaching gone “viral.”

This morning, I’m reflecting on the long-reach teachers have through email and digital documents and I hope more students will keep me on “speed-file” as a learning resource, long after they’re moving on to other grades. It’s a powerful way to be a larger part of their educational community and learning network. I can only imagine the power for students to keep in touch with former teachers as they build their own personal learning networks.

 

Can Middle Schoolers Understand Consent?

It was toward the middle of the last class of the day when someone put together that it was, in fact, my birthday. As if that fact was not enough, the class spontaneously broke into a loud, disruptive, and wholly unnecessary rendition of the birthday song.

Here’s the thing: I don’t like being sung to. I don’t like being forced to endure the ritual. And I certainly didn’t want the massive disruption in a class that was already teetering on the edge of control, so I did what I thought was best. I held up my hands, palms up, and calmly said, “No. Please stop.”

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They didn’t stop.

 

I repeated myself, louder and more firmly this time: “No. Please. I mean it. Please stop.”

 

Then a student said, “You don’t really mean that. Doesn’t no really mean yes?” The class laughed, certain of the joke; I felt like white hot lightning ran down my spine.

“Come on, Mrs. Leung. We just want to sing you Happy Birthday,” said one.

“Yeah,” said another, “you don’t really want us to stop.”

That’s when I dropped my arms and my voice. “I think we need to have a little conversation about consent.”

Immediately, the student who made the “no means yes” comment grasped what she had said and inhaled a short, sharp breath.

In the space after my declaration, a boy asked, “What does consent mean?”

Before I could answer, another student piped up, saying, “It’s like we’ve been talking about in ‘Flowers for Algernon.’ Charlie Gordon couldn’t really give consent or full permission to the doctors for the experiment. He didn’t know what they were asking him to do–and they shouldn’t have taken advantage of him.”

Then I added: “Consent means you agree fully and give permission. No only means no. Yes only means yes. Even if you think a person is really kidding when they say no, it’s so important to take them at their word. If someone tells you, “No. Stop,” then you must stop.”

After that, the class nodded thoughtfully–and asked some good questions about why I’d declined their serenade–and I was happy to explain my feelings and how much it meant to me that they had eventually listened and respected my wishes.

I hadn’t planned on teaching something so important–or so sensitive–to my students, but I know my message got through in a meaningful way. I hope that if they find themselves in a situation involving consent that they will think of Charlie Gordon and know what to do.

Can middle schoolers understand consent? In a word, yes.

Principles of UDL (and Home Adventures in Plumbing)

It was the wobbly toilet tank I noticed first.

I was balanced on a step stool with a paint roller in my hand, adding a fresh coat of paint to the upstairs bathroom. As I moved the roller along the wall, I nudged the tank–and it shifted. Noticeably. With a steady “drip, drip, drip” of water on the linoleum tile.

“That can’t be good,” I thought.

I have zero background or experience with plumbing beyond jiggling the handle in a desperate attempt to avoid calling a plumber. I was alone in the house and had two options: 1. Pretend I didn’t notice the rapidly deteriorating situation and hope it would miraculously fix itself. Or 2. Roll up my sleeves and take a look inside the tank. No one was coming to save me. This was going to take some courage.

I didn’t really want to look. I wasn’t sure what I’d find once I took the lid off the top–and even when I did, how was I supposed to tell if the widget sprocket was properly attached to the doohickey? Even if I could tell what was wrong, that didn’t mean I had the skills or the tools to fix it. I hesitated and wondered if I ought to just call in an expert and stand aside. It struck me in that moment that this was a feeling I recognized in myself and in my students. I was afraid to fail.

Facing Uncertainty

As a teacher, I am used to asking my students to embrace uncertainty–and to revel in the struggle that goes hand-in-hand with learning. Just this year I had encouraged my classes to “lean in” to what we called the mushy-middle of the learning process, that icky, uncomfortable feeling we get when we’re not sure if we understand something well enough. The road to developing the dispositions of an expert learner is paved with bricks of uncertainty and discomfort. Without the struggle, there’s no lasting learning. For me, that meant I was going to have to face my discomfort if I planned to solve my current problem. I had come face to face with the first principle of Universal Design for Learning: Engagement.

When it comes to education, the term engagement often triggers images of students actively participating in and enjoying a task, but that’s not the whole picture. When we dig a little deeper into the UDL guidelines in the area of engagement, it becomes clear that engagement is an orientation to learning that allows a learner to persist in the face of difficulty and approach challenges with a growth mindset. For me, in taking the lid off the tank, I was committing myself to fully engage with this problem. I was going to need some persistence and the ability to self-regulate in the face of my discomfort.

Taking Action

When I removed the lid, the next step was to figure out my strategy. What was wrong? What would it take to fix it? How might I go about solving this problem on my own? I was now in UDL territory for Action and Expression. Like many of my students, since I wasn’t sure where to begin, I started by experimenting. I noticed a couple of rusty blobs evenly spaced at the bottom of the tank and decided to poke one. It promptly disintegrated into a cloud of grime and I now heard a metallic “thunk” accompanying the ceaseless dripping as the remains of a threaded bolt spiraled across the floor.

A quick mop-up and a few web searches later, I had diagnosed the trouble. The tank bolts (Who knew there was such a thing?) had corroded and I would have to replace them along with the rest of the worn-out parts governing the toilet’s operation inside the tank. My next step was to do what I want my students to do; I made observations, consulted my resources, and sought expert advice. After a quick trip to the hardware store for the necessary tools and supplies, I was ready for the next step.

Scaffolding, Mentor Texts, and Exemplars

In the classroom, I’m used to sharing materials to support my students through a UDL lens. Not every student needs the same supports, but I provide a wide variety to all my students and give them the freedom to choose the level of support they need. When it came to making my repairs, I definitely needed the final UDL principle: multiple means of Representation. Since I’d never done any plumbing repairs before, I bought a kit that included specific step-by-step instructions as well as a QR code link to an installation video. I looked up diagrams and used pictures to check each step of the process as I worked. I was grateful for the video support because it meant I could watch (and rewatch) the same step as much as I needed until I got it right and could move to the next one.

Experts vs Expert Learners

I wish I could say that simply following directions meant that once I turned the water supply back on that there were no more issues and everything worked just right. Instead, I discovered mistakes in my installation that required going back a step, reviewing the supporting materials, and trying again (and again.) How many times do my students find themselves in this situation–whether it’s encountering feedback on a writing assignment or looking over an assessment for right and wrong answers? I was getting feedback with every sputter and drip of a misaligned seal. It wasn’t personal. I needed the feedback to ensure my work was correct.

After a couple of hours, I was able to put my tools away, turn off the bathroom light, and move on to another home improvement project. I’m by no means a master plumber, but this experience reminded me what’s at stake for my students and their learning experience in the classroom. Bringing UDL into the classroom means I can leverage my content to help students develop into lifelong learners. I recognized the skills and dispositions of an expert learner in myself as I took on the repair work–skills and dispositions I want my students to develop so that when they are faced with a problem outside the classroom, no matter what situations they encounter, they approach those challenges as an expert learner.

Your Turn

What does engagement look like for you? For your students? How can we help students find feedback meaningful (and necessary) for learning? Explore these resources if you’re ready to take on your own classroom improvement project and leave a comment if you have your own story or insight to share.

Although I couldn’t find any other exciting videos about home plumbing repairs, I did want to share this video of American Ninja Warrior Jessie Graff completing her course. Jessie exemplifies someone who is thoroughly engaged in a task in spite of the effort and strain it takes to complete.

Embracing “Icky” as a Learning Stage

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I’m attempting a more Universally Designed approach to reviewing and deepening my students’ understanding of the essay and that means more up-front prep for me, but then it’s in my students’ hands to Choose their Own Learning Adventure.

I established a bank of resources–videos, texts, graphic organizers, and images–and then sat back and allowed my students to take control of their learning instead of simply recording and repeating my one unique presentation on the topic. It has been a good challenge for me to let my students be responsible for their own learning and make meaning for themselves.

I watched as students took their time, selected options, watched and rewatched short video lessons, took textbooks and reference materials from the shelf–and struggled productively to make sense of the concept of a thesis.

Half -way through the process, we talked together as a class to share our emerging understanding of thesis statements. This allowed me to help them consolidate their learning as well as to eliminate any misconceptions. The class then had an opportunity to practice identifying strong and weak thesis statements, finally constructing an example to share with the class.

While we talked, I asked my students to give me a “show of thumbs” which is one of the formative assessments we use to check-in with our understanding. Most students were in what I call the “icky-middle”: not entirely confident, but not utterly lost.

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I encouraged them to embrace the icky middle–because that middle ground is what learning feels like when we encounter something new. Some students laughed, some grimaced and wanted to push the icky feeling away. For all of us, it was a good opportunity to stay in touch with the messages our body gives us about how we learn. Confusion and productive struggle feel like a physical threat. It can elevate stress hormones and cause anxiety. By naming that feeling as part of learning something new, my hope is to empower students to lean into the struggle and not fear the discomfort. If they can recognize the feeling and not fear it, then the struggle becomes a companion and not an enemy; it becomes a signal for real learning, and not something shameful to be avoided.

My Students Say Thank You

I don’t remember when I first noticed it. A student here or there would pause on the way out my classroom door, turn to me, and say, “Thank you, Mrs. Leung.”

It’s new to me.

When I was in middle school, it never occurred to me to thank my teachers for opening doors and windows in my mind or for believing in me. I never said thank you for the corrective feedback and coaching on writing assignments. It never crossed my mind that my teachers were anything more than gatekeepers of right and wrong.

So that’s why it struck me. Those thank yous stopped me in my place with the power of gratitude: Thank you for teaching me. Thank you for today’s lesson. Thank you for listening. Thank you for challenging me. Thank you for the feedback.

Thanks so much Ms. Leung for the feedback. I will use your feedback.

Student comment on feedback. The response came one minute after I posted.

I’ve been teaching fourteen years and I’ve never had so many students say thank you so often. In a way, I think it’s a function of the ease of electronic communication. If I leave a comment in a Google Doc or in Classroom, many students see the note pop up on their personal screens. It’s a way to say, “Hi. I saw your work. I notice your skills.” How can that not lead to stronger teacher-student relationships? But that can’t be the only reason. This generation of children I am fortunate to know has a keen understanding of valuing relationships.

When I feel frustrated at the lack of civility that seems to permeate public discourse, I think of my students and am so grateful. If a student understands the power of thanks at the age of twelve, that is a person who will grow into a grateful adult who can accept constructive criticism and use it to better herself.

These remarkable people are growing up fast. Keep your eyes open. When they start appearing on the horizon, you’re going to be dazzled by how much they’re going to change the world.

The Bubble and the Pin: A Teacher Contemplates Bacon’s “Of Youth and Age”

Forest Bubble by ecstaticist on Flickr

Several, two students approached me after school to talk about their ideas for our school’s theater program. They hoped to create a student-run equivalent of the existing program and were eager to get started with script writing as soon as summer vacation began.

They laid their plans on my desk–a notebook with scribbled pages and bullet points. I loved the idea, but there were too many problems that had to be addressed. Who would ultimately be in charge? What would be my primary role? How would we ensure that each person does what she commits to do? How would my students manage to find time to write, direct, rehearse, and perform when the school’s auditorium schedule was already filled?

They spoke with enthusiasm and certainty. This was their dream and they knew they could make it happen. As I listened to their ideas, I remembered feeling that way. I remembered thinking that I saw all the answers and simply needed someone who was willing to listen and give me a chance. Half way through their pitch, one student apologized for his unchecked idealism.

Then I remembered reading Francis Bacon’s essay “Of Youth and Age.”

Young men, in the conduct and manage of actions, embrace more than they can hold; stir more than they can quiet; fly to the end, without consideration of the means and degrees; pursue some few principles which they have chanced upon absurdly; care not to innovate, which draws unknown inconveniences; use extreme remedies at first; and that which doubleth all errors will not acknowledge or retract them; like an unready horse, that will neither stop nor turn.

These students had passion, creativity, and a thirst for more ways to learn about the craft of theater. What they didn’t have was an understanding of what it was they hoped to accomplish. Bacon reminded me: it is the nature of Youth to create and make messes, and my responsibility to help them find the balance between their boldest ambitions and the constraints of time, space, and human frailty. I couldn’t be an advisor for this project because I had too many responsibilities of my own already, but I didn’t want to crush their enthusiasm. I went back to Bacon and read this:

Men of age object too much, consult too long, adventure too little, repent too soon, and seldom drive business home to the full period, but content themselves with a mediocrity of success.

Erin Popping a Water Balloon by davidjlee on Flickr

Ouch. I knew what Bacon meant, and I wanted to avoid becoming one of those teachers–content with mediocrity, spinning my wheels in a world of “maybe someday.” The more we talked, the more I think they saw how impossible it would be to create the type of student-run theater they wanted.  They could think of no one else who could act as a club sponsor other than me. I would have to teach a year-long theater class and use class time if we were to make all of their ideas work, and even at that, there were no guarantees that their schedules would allow enough room to take such a class.

Then I offered an alternative, an idea I’d toyed with for a “Ten-Minute Film” Festival of student-produced films. A lot of the responsibility and creative elements would be in their hands, and that’s what they wanted (and needed) most. I’m glad my sharp pin of reality didn’t completely dissuade them and that I found a way to combine their ideas with my perspective.

Certainly it is good to compound employments of both; for that will be good for the present, because the virtues of either age may correct the defects of both; and good for succession, that young men may be learners, while men in age are actors; and, lastly, good for extern accidents, because authority followeth old men, and favor and popularity youth.

Working in partnership with my students–giving them voice–makes the best of both our efforts.